We just got back from a most lovely vacation in Sayulita, Mexico. Have you been? It came onto my radar a few times over the past year so when I found a gorgeous house for rent there, I convinced my husband and our two friends, Shannon and Eric, to set out on a Mexican vacation.
It was really kind of perfect. We ate, we drank, we swam, we napped, we ate some more and napped again. There were a few fun adventures sprinkled into the mix which made it a true vacation. What made it even more so was I completely disconnected from social media (minus one photo I posted on IG of the house. To make people jealous, obviously). It wasn't even a conscious decision as much as it seems to have come to a natural boiling point of a desperate need of disconnection. Keeping up online is exhausting. It also allows you to connect to other things, like, I don't know, your thoughts?!
With all the time I had lounging near or in the pool, I got to thinking how when we allow ourselves to remain open to possibility, even if we are stubbornly digging our heels into the dirt — in fear or discomfort or actually just stubbornness — good and sweet things will naturally present themselves. And maybe even, as soon as we stop thinking about it too much, life has an organic way of shaping itself into something beautiful.
And then it started happening. One email after the other — a wholesale re-order, a new wholesale order inquiry, a custom design request, a positive review, just to name a few — rolling in, showing me that I don't have to always be 'on' for my hard work to pay off. That it's ok to step away for a minute or a week. That just because I haven't logged onto Facebook or Instagram for six days, I won't have to watch all my work swirl away down a tinted brown drain.
This got me reflecting on the past year and how I have been indeed moving forward, although, digging my heels in the whole way (mostly out of fear and uncertainty, I admit). But despite that, my business is growing: slowly, naturally, in a way that I am comfortable with. I let something go in Mexico and have come back with a softer sense of what I want LLR to become. I can't help but acknowledge that I haven't known where I've been going with this ever, not since day one. You, dear, darling, reader, have been along for the uncertain ride and I thank you. And despite the fact I still don't really know where I'm headed, I am working on the bits and pieces that I do know and am watching it magically stitch itself together. And when I say magically, I mean that I work at it everyday, in one way or another, and some days working on it simply means stepping away from it long enough to see that the world won't end if I hold off on responding to an email or I don't produce new work on a set schedule.
Life is bigger than work. Even if your work is your life.
And then Saturday happened. I woke up too early, my husband sound asleep beside me, and I took to the internet for some early morning news. The first thing I read was about an earthquake in Nepal that had caused a major avalanche on Everest. Instant tears. I shook my husband awake, 'There's been an earthquake in Nepal, an avalanche on Everest. Caroline and Jason.' More tears. We have two very good friends who are on Everest. They were there. They are still there.
Here is where social media truly wins. It didn't take long for us to get some information about them and we soon learned that they and their team were ok but stuck on the mountain. I couldn't help but think about all the work they put into getting there. The time, the energy, the training, the money, the hope, the dream of the summit. How you can plan, and plan, and execute your plan and it just doesn't fucking matter. Life will happen in the way that it chooses and you will just have to be ok with it.
My husband received a text from Caroline the other day which of course was such a relief but until they are home, a sense of worry remains. We love you two and truly cannot wait to see you, to drink and laugh and cry. To celebrate this life.
What does life look like when you are faced with death? (Wow, this post just took a turn!) All I mean to say is that a change of plans is always just around the corner and those plans can either be unexpected and unwelcome or...they could also be wildly exciting and the best thing ever. Right? So why not stay open to anything? To remain open to all possibilities while actively working towards your goals. It seems like a good way to go about life, yes?
So last week, while lazily lounging by the pool, Shannon came outside to tell me she has a friend in New York City who is looking for someone to cat sit for three weeks in July. Am I interested? Ummmm... YES! After a few facebook messages and a Skype conversation, I am heading to NYC on July 3 for three weeks to hang out with a cat and to submerge myself in inspiration. Can you imagine? How did this amazing thing land in my lap? I don't know for sure but I think it may have to do with keeping doors open to any and all possibilities and always choosing yes.
It feels a bit like I think surfing might: I just keep catching waves and riding high but I'm not so sure of myself that I am above the possibility of getting caught in a wave and being taken under for a bit of a beating. But I also know I would just have to get back up on my board and catch the next wave. For now, I'm riding high and enjoying the salty water.
I will write with more details about this bonkers opportunity soon but will add that because of this, I will actually be closing the shop for the summer. It will give me the time I need to get sorted in a new city and reshape my plans for LLR.
With that said, although the shop will be closed, I will still happily take requests for custom design work and remain open for wholesale inquiries.
Also, if you have any recommendations for things to do or see in NYC, PLEASE let me know in the comments below!
Until next time,